Thursday, March 26, 2009

Giving my carelink username and password?!

What a dilemma. I have an endo appointment monday morning. This is a good thing - my previous endo moved across the country, and after 14 years in this endo clinic, I had to go back to my GP to re-refereed for a new endo. I have had endo's leave in the past, and my case was always handed over to a new physician. Well, this time was different. My Ha1c was not great, but it was good enough to triage in to a 2+ year wait list to be assigned a new the wait is over.

I have been emailing back and forth with my education nurse, who thanks to the small number of patients on pumps, she remembers me by name. She said, if I gave her my username and password for carelink, she would print all of the data off for the Dr.

This is very helpful - and I agreed.....but now I sit and think about how my views of my diabetes control have changed over the years, especially over the past years since I ventured in to "adulthood". Take this scenario when I was 15 years old, and I would have been hiding all of the bad readings in order to avoid the "lectures". Now, I am laying it all out there.

There is a part of the health care system that is steering away from the "lecture" technique to encourage proper diabetes care....and allowing persons to step back and accept that their control may not be perfect, but small changes and small steps will make a big difference. Maybe adding a bit of realism?

I do feel vulnerable allowing people in to my secret diabetes world. All of the data that is secretly stored in my pump will be examined and critiqued by my diabetes health goodness I don't even like people to see my meter screen when I test!

This is my first appointment with no carelink limitations. Last time, I took in the printouts I wanted the Dr to see. This time........