Wednesday, September 26, 2007

The Beauty Of Greens

Yesterday was my most nerve racking day of the year. I hate going to the eye specialist, as do most persons with diabetes. I was not even this nervous when I jumped out of an airplane last weekend (Oh that was such a rush, I can not even explain the feeling of free falling from 10,000 ft!!!!!! I am still waiting for the pictures to tell about that day).

Either way, I woke early knowing I had to walk to the clinic.....as I could not drive afterwards! It was a nice morning and I had an enjoyable walk to the office. I waited 1.5 hours in the waiting room. I read every magazine, texted every friend I could think of, tried to have a nap -anything to occupy this nervous time.

I finally went in, and had those dreaded drops. You all know what I mean....your vision slowly disappears until you are left in a fog. Once that fog was secure, I was called into the room by the Dr.

My eye specialist is one of the nicest guys I have ever met. I see this man once a year, and he always knows who I am, and asks specific questions about my life - which shows me pays attention when I am talking with him. We laughed, we talked...and then he proceeed to look deep into my eyes. The blinding band of light passes slowly through all sections of my eye, deeply exposing what I hope are healthy blood vessels. 

That 30 seconds waiting was the longest 30 seconds of the whole year. Waiting for what he is going to say. Good? Bad? Oh the suspense was killing me, and had me nervous enough to barf.

Once he was done, he sat back....and gave me a smile. He knows this freaks me out, and now from that smile I knew everything was ok. He pats me on the shoulder and says everything is looking good for another year, and I can carry along my way. We discuss the CGMS technology and part ways. I booked in to see him 12 months later, and I know he will remember out conversation from today. Amazing.

I left, and of course was as blind as a bat. I had my sunglasses on, but I could not even stand to have my eyes open. I walked as best I could - but could not get over how intense the colors of what I could see. The green of the grass is what I noticed, mostly because I was staring at the ground. Amazing intensity and looked like velvet. I was able to glance briefly up at the trees to the most intense green leaves I have ever seen. 

A gentle reminder to enjoy the beauty around me.

 

2 comments:

Donna said...

My eye doctor is the same way. He seems to remember everything we talked about from year to year. It's nice that he's paying attention to what you say. And if he's paying that much attention to what you're saying, imagine how much more he's paying attention to your eyes. That's a great find!

Oh, my eye doctor sounds just like Kevin Costner & looks a little like him, too. That'a also a pretty good find. LOL!

Sandra said...

Did you feel like you were going to pass out? THAT would take the cake Miss Pass Out Girl :)